Friday, December 5, 2014

Journies

   I was really surprised when I logged in and realized I haven't made a blog post since the beginning of October. But then again, I'm not surprised actually. The last few months have been busy, especially with all the clinical hours I have had to do and fall photoshoots ( which is always the busiest time of the year for photographers). 
  One week from today I am done! I have two more classes and one exam to take. It's still feels so surreal that in one week I will be a graduate nurse. Sometimes when I think about it I get really emotional. What the heck just happened?!? The last two years have been a whirlwind of class, clinicals, fun times and not so fun times. It's been a time of pushing myself both emotionally and physically, and it's certainly pushed my patience. The long days and short nights, looking back now it did go by fast. I have learned so much in the last two years, about medicine, nursing, why people do the things they do, empathy, sympathy, looking outside the box, critical thinking. But most of all I have learned more about myself then I could have ever imagined. 

 I have been thinking lately about where I want to be in 5 years. I did this serious type of thought about 5 years ago too. And obviously it worked. I knew I wanted to be an RN, and I knew that it would take a lot of work and patience. I knew that it would take determination and a lot of planning. Now the end of that 5 years is over and it's so empowering to know I reached my goal. I love this feeling. 
 A few days ago, I sat down with a blank piece of paper and a pen and asked myself, where do I want to be in the next 5 years. I broke it down year by year, semester by semester. And it turns out that where I really want to be, where I can see myself with the right planning, is in the dual FNP/CNM program through The University of Michigan. As I sat there and broke my time frame down I realized that it's going to take lots of determination and planning. But so did my last 5 year plan. 
  Being a mother, my children are always the first thing I think about when I think about doing something. And I believe that with the right planning, I can be a great mother who is completely active in the lives of my children, and follow my own dreams and aspirations. That's where precise planning come in. I understand that graduate school is a great deal of time commitment. My goal is to not make it to where I am stuck in a "rut". Example would be where I put myself in a situation where I must work to make it. Where I would need to work 40 hours a week to be able to pay the bills, and try to go to school on top of that. When would I ever see my family?!? I understand that I must maintain a minimal lifestyle to be able to stop working at some point to be able to continue my education and still be very present in the life of my children.
 Next week, when I walk out of the testing center, I'm not exactly sure how I will feel. Mixed emotions I'm sure!

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